well it's actually - I was stuck. and what are you going to do when you're stuck? I had to allign myself with something, it's not that easy to just pick up [unintelligible] usually it's just STOP - and then all right, well now it's stopped. I had never had a problem starting and now I couldn't start but I had all these half finished things, these fragments, and I was in serious fear of depersonalization. if I can't construct a narrative out of my life, if everything is just moment to moment to moment, well that's great if I want Nirvana, but what if I don't want Nirvana? Maybe I want something that's going to be useful to me here. And the only thing that I knew that worked every time, was love. So I started with love. I wanted to write a love song.